So today is Father's Day, and I am feeling a little sad and frustrated, I see too many negative stuff related to fatherhood. If Mother's Day was full of, "you are only a mother if you didn't annoy your children" or, "if you stayed home" or, "if you baked homemade cookies everyday" Mother's Day would suck because you can never measure up. It saddens me, because I know that there are many good fathers around the world, but because a minority of them abandon their families, Fathers Day is filled with negativity.
Firstly, Fatherhood is NOT easy. The sacrifices all too often are overlooked, and not appreciated. Fathers work on Christmas so his family can open presents without him, Thanksgiving dinners reheated in microwaves, and hear about Easter egg hunts second hand. Depending on their work schedule, they can miss performances, games and birthday parties. Too often resentment builds up for these absences while dad if fulfilling his responsibilities in the family. I pray that I will be able to raise these children in the knowledge that their dad is doing his job, and that we should always be grateful.
(I understand that that there are some TRULY absent fathers, but I'm not talking about them)
I miss Luke like crazy today.
I love my children so much, and though this happens other days, I
cannot look at Alton, Benjamin, and my expansive tummy, and not feel an
overwhelming love and longing for Luke. I wish so badly that he was able
to see how funny, thoughtful, and sometimes frustrating his children
are. He will never get this time back, and I know how much it breaks his heart. Some people say that it is harder for the spouse that stays home, but that isn't always the case. I can imagine Luke sadness of being apart from us and my heart tears apart for him. If I am having a bad day, I can comfort myself in smiling faces of the kids, where Luke can't. How very selfish I am in thinking that I don't know that I would be able to make the same sacrifice should the shoe be on the other foot. I have an amazing husband, and my children have an amazing Father.
I know this post was rather random, and out there but I just have a lot of feelings and emotions this morning, that I wanted to get out.
BYE BYE
